S O Y

No, I haven't changed my diet...After talking to my friends and family, it seems that I may have become a little disgruntled with the dating world. So, my friends have decided to take this situation and take control of it. So, we are going to be starting the SUMMER OF YES.
Here's the breakdown:
I have to go on any date that they approve. There is 3 of them, so they will take a vote. They get complete access to my match.com and can ask for dates on my behalf. I can not veto the date at any time. If we go on a date, and the guy isn't a total creep, then I HAVE to go on a second date. I was of course adamant about a couple of things. I set age limits, non smoker, and height restrictions.
We are going to start this very soon...since my first year with match.com didn't work out like I planned, I guess we are going to start a new experience for 2011. I'll keep you posted!!

Sighs have taken over my life...

It's unbelievable the amount of time I spend sighing in a day.
Examples:

--"So, when is your wedding going to be? I really need to plan my vacation days..."


--"Wow, you are 31? You need to pop some kids out before you are WAY too old!"


--"You ever consider that you weren't meant to be with anyone. Maybe God has a bigger plan for you. You should consider missionary work. Lots of unmarried women find that to be really rewarding."


--"You are such a pretty girl. I wonder why men just don't like you."


--"I can't sleep at night just thinking about how you are going to die alone "(this one is courtesy of my mother)


So I guess for now, sighs are my answer to everything. I mean, is there really an answer to any of this? Any smart alec comeback I have, just makes me seem bitter. So, I have surrendered to the sighs. That's the best response I can give for now.

Still single?? How can that be??

So, over a year later and I am still single. This experiment has taken over my identity. Who am I? The single girl? While it is true that I am the ONLY single one out of my family at all gatherings. And, I am the ONLY single one out of my closest girlfriends. Has that become my new identity? Is it possible that maybe I was meant to be single? Does it mean that you are an awful person if you really don't get all mushy and tingly inside when you see a couple kissing in public? Or when you see a child crying all you can do is sigh...with relief that its not your kid? Aren't these normal reactions? Someone recently told me that I needed to consider that maybe I would be alone for the rest of my life. Wow, harsh. Well, I have considered it. I have an amazing family and great friends. The funny thing is that I don't feel alone. I am actually grateful that I can come and go as I please. I am happy that I can sleep through the night and not have to hear a baby screaming for food. I have become a truly "single" person. Is it possible to share your life with someone, when you have spent your whole life trying not to??

P.s.--I know all of you mother's out there are going to tell me about the joys of motherhood. I just can't relate. Maybe one day, but for now...

They say...

So if I hear one more married person tell me that the day they stopped looking for a boyfriend/husband/partner is the day they met the person of their dreams, I may actually scream. It's an insane idea that "universe" is somehow against you being pro active and finding a partner. So I need to stop looking? And then what? A man somehow appears in my lap. Everything I was looking for...but I wasn't looking right? So very confusing and a little annoying. Married folks: If you have been married for over 5 years, then you don't remember what it was like to date. It is not fun. And no, I don't want to meet your brother in law/cousin/awesome guy you work with...

What am I doing wrong??

This is an actual guy that winked at me on Match.com. I really need to rethink my profile if this is what I am attracting... Yep. I'm single. The Internet who would have thought it. This insane dude. I like to party but its not always about drinking (just most of the times hehe) but seriously if we just went to a club to dance i would probably have more fun than you jk i don't know you yet lol. anyways by reading this you are probably inferring that my english is horrible. Negative. Quite to the contrary i pride myself in my mastery of english. But what you could correctly infer is that i am lazy not in that o hes fat kinda lazy but i want to get it done and over as fast as possible lazy but only when im not working cuz when im getting paid i do it right always thats the only to live a life. i love to read i used to write mosltly but i stopped i dont know why cuz i found video games . My ideal match would be someone who loves video games mainly versus games like fighters or shooters but rpg's are also fantastical. i love anime also she will be willing to try watching anime if she doesnt already i dont know what she would like but i would appreciate her beauty. im thinking she would be a lil bit of a social girl cuz i love to party and dance and do all that jazz im sure she would love to do it also i dunno dude this seams like pre-emptive in its nature if you think your interested at all gimme a shout plz zombie lovers not a must but definately a bonus same thing with redheads its just my thing ---Ps. His profile pic is of him doing a beer bong....

Still talking to the "new guy"...

Oh, my. So much has happened, where do I begin? Ok, let's start with the last guy. So we didn't talk or text for about 3 weeks. I had given up all hope and then he shows up at my job. No warning, no heads up, just shows up. He texts me to see if I am there and I respond no. He then asks if we could meet up for a drink and talk. Ok, this is weird, but I say yes. We meet up and talked about a lot of things. I asked him what his deal was. Why he hadn't text or called in 3 weeks and then bam, he just shows up. He said that he had a lot of insecurities since his divorce and that he may have projected some of those on to me. I explained to him that I was not asking for a proposal, just wanted him to be more available. I also explained to him that if he wasn't into me, then that was fine, but I was NOT interested in wasting my time. Basically, I let him have it. So....he has called or texted me every day. He came out with me and some friends last week also...one would think its going well. Until this week. He has plans every night and is going out of town this weekend. It seems that he is starting the whole cycle again. Frustrating... AND NO--he does not have a girlfriend(I have been to his place a couple of times)...ok, so I THINK he doesn't have a girlfriend...

The new guy...

OK, here goes. Met a new guy. He's Indian, got a great job, and is funny...what's the catch? If you had asked me a week ago, I would have said there wasn't one...today...
OK, here's the story:
Met online, exchanged emails, then phone numbers(all within 2 days), then began talking and texting almost every day. Now, I am no fool. I did not ONCE initiate conversation with him. He called or texted me EVERY day...until...the day he didn't. He didn't call or text for 2 days...I of course, just let it go. He would call when he was ready to. And he did. Called me 2 days later asking how I was. He even apologized for not keeping in touch with me for the last couple of days--he was swamped at work. Everything was back to happyville. Then we were supposed to go out on Monday. Of course ICE STORM 2011 hit and everyone ran for cover. Although we were supposed to go out Monday and the storm didn't technically hit until Tuesday, but whatever...he was supposed to go out of town, but that got postponed because of the weather...yet he never let me know that he was still in town...OK, moving on.
We continued to talk/text for the next couple of days and HE told me that he wanted to watch the Superbowl together. HE told me to put some plans together. This was all HIS idea. (hope you are getting my point).
So guess what? I didn't hear from him for 2 days again...Then a text on Saturday. Now, I did break a rule. I did ask him if we were still on for Sunday. I know I shouldn't have, but a girl has to make plans doesn't she??? The response: "Um, yeah, what time were you thinking?" What time? Its the Superbowl, how about that time??!! I responded that we should hook up before the game started and that I didn't care where we watched it, that it was up to him.(bad move?)
NO RESPONSE. Until 11:00AM Sunday morning:
"Ugh, not feeling well."
Ok, I get it. So I did what any normal girl would do to make a man feel bad. I lied.
My response: "Aww man! That sucks! I was going to surprise you with some party passes to the game, but since your not feeling well, I understand taht you cant make it. Hope you feel better soon! And look for me on the jumbo tron!"
Ok, maybe in hindsight not the best move, but geez, blow me off twice?? A little lie is worth it...
So, here I am again, single(well, I guess I always was), and back on the prowl...

UPDATE: He texted me Monday afternoon to see how the game was...I am going to wait at least 2 days before I respond....I am a busy girl after all....

So, you're saying you are not dead???

So the assistant principal from the last blog really messed with my mind. I mean, why just drop off the face of the earth? I am totally convinced he found out where I worked (I never told him) and saw me and was done...What else can a girl really think? Since then no one has really even sparked an interest. The only "winks" I get are from guys at least 6 years younger than me...I really don't have time to babysit these days...SO, in the spirit of being "dumped" I of course had to find out if Mr. assistant principal was dead or not. So, I checked Match.com every day to see if he had logged in...I know, its crazy, but he really left me no choice. For 2 weeks not one sign of him...until last night. He was online the same time as me. And no, I did not have the guts to ask what happened, or what was wrong. Well, at least he's not dead right? Hmmm....